Camille Prats's husband dies of cancer

This news really made me sad today.

I love Camille. I follow her on Twitter. Her tweets are so positive she doesn't seem to have such struggle at home.

Her husband died of throat cancer this morning at age 31. Yes, 31 years old. And Camille is now a widow at 26 years old, left with a 3 year old son.

I never thought her fairytale would be shortlived. They got married in Civil Rites last January 5, 2008 and twenty days after their wedding, she gave birth to their son. The got married again in a lavish church ceremony March 5 of last year. Then this year, he left her.

http://www.gmanews.tv/story/233235/entertainment/manager-actress-camille-prats-husband-dies-of-cancer

Baby Questions

I get a lot of them ever since I got married. At first, it was fine to answer each and every question but as you go along, it gets irritating. Not to mention, some comments are down right rude and insensitive. People don’t realize they’re hitting below the belt.

“Are you pregnant yet?”

“Why not?”

“Baog ka ba?”

“Nahirapan ka bang magbuntis?”

“Naku, kelangan mo ng mabuntis. Alam mo na, tumatanda na tayo. Yung eggs natin…”

WTF? The truth is, I am really getting tired of answering these questions. Most of the time, I want to slap or punch their faces. I already told my husband about this and how annoyed I am every time they ask me these questions. His answer was “Wag kang mapikon. Mais-stress ka lang. Hayaan mo sila.”

Ok now, for the record, let me answer your questions. Me and my husband both decided not to have a baby yet. Not until we are stable, financially capable, ready and for me, can take a rest from traveling.  There.

this lovely baby has yet to be made

Finances

there goes my budget for shopping

Money is important in a family. It makes our lives comfortable. Money is used to buy and pay for things. We buy food, we buy water, we pay for our house, our utilities, our other needs, wants, etc. my husband and I have stable jobs. We make more than an average Filipino family earns. But we also have our lifestyle. We love going out, travel, watching movies, eat out and once in a while, spoil ourselves. Therefore, most of our salary goes to whatever we spend to make us comfortable.

When my husband I talked about having a baby, we figured out that some of our “loves” would have to be sacrificed.  Most of our salary would probably go to diapers, milk, vaccines, yaya, baby clothes and baby cutie stuff.  That’s probably 40% of our total household budget. Aray!

Time

look at Miranda Kerr's supermodel eyabags

My husband and I love to spend time with each other. We are selfish when it comes to our time. We love being together in one place at the same time. We usually stay in our house, watch tv, dvd, be lazy all day, cuddle, kiss, have sex and whatever things our body can do during our free time. If we have a baby, we’ll say “Hello” to sleepless nights. We’ll probably take turns in changing the diaper, feeding the baby, watching the baby and what not. That’s just a whole lot of time being apart from each other. And it makes me sad. L

Our traveling

my husband could be this guy

or my baby can bring her own stuff

You all know I love to travel. And when I travel, I always tag my husband along. On an average, I travel six to eight times a year. Why? Because that’s how I maintain my sanity. I easily get bored at work so when I want to de-stress, I go out of town. Now, if I get pregnant, I’d probably stay in the city for nine agonizing months. I dread that day! And if we have a baby, my traveling will be put on hold for at least three years. Well, they say I can still travel even if I have an infant. Guess what, I hate traveling with babies. When I’m on a plane or bus, I easily get irritated with crying and screaming babies on board. I would not take that responsibility of shutting the baby up when it’s my own who’s causing disturbance with other people. Not. Just. My. Thing. Also I’ve traveled with people carrying their babies and they can’t seem to have fun because they just end up in the hotel room feeding the baby and putting the baby to sleep while we were out on the beach having good food, cocktails and swim. Oh no!

Well, I have a whole lot of reasons not to have a baby. But of course, I want to have one. Not to mention my hubby is making kulit na that we get pregnant. In fact, I am reading mommy and baby stories already. I already researched on birthing experiences, hospital rates, good OB’s and the rest. We wished to get pregnant sometime next year.  I will get ready to be pregnant on our first shot. That’s why as early as now, we are watching our diet, try to have more exercise and be healthy.

we'll be this mom and baby soon

I don’t mean to say that babies are pain in the ass. They are cute. I love babies but taking care of them is a whole different story. Maybe, I am saying all these things now because I don’t have maternal instincts yet. Or maybe, it’s just the independence in me speaking out. I am not used to having someone dependent on me. I admit, it’s my fear. My baby will be very dependent on me and I will be very attached to her. Oh my. I fear that I will grow deeply in love with her that I could not go to work anymore and develop fears for her.

Oh shoot! Just by writing this entry makes me more worried. Scratch it. I will not worry about it for now. I will enjoy my remaining days of being a sexy wife. And when I get preggers next  year, you all will know it because I am going to be blogging away my momma-hood!

Would I like to go back on being single again?

I stumbled upon a question for married people that says “Given a chance, would you rather go back in being single?”, my answer is a big NO. I love being married! And I am lucky to have been married to one of the most fascinating guys I’ve known.

I think the question next is “Do I miss being single?”. My answer is NO. Why? Because I am still enjoying it. Sans the flirting, of course. And oh, for the record, I was never a flirt. Trust me. It was never my habit and to be honest, I don’t know how to flirt. Or maybe, I am not just flirt at all because I am pretty much straight forward. Going back to the topic, YES, I still enjoy things that single women do even when I am married. And that’s when you say I am very lucky with my husband. And by the way, I am the only married girl in our group without a baby. Well, there's two of us married - Me and Natalie. But Nat has baby Nate so she's become a mom now. She's got other priorities. So that leaves me to a pool of single ladies with mostly no boyfriends. Cool!

You see, when I was still single, I love to hang out with my friends, go on drinking sessions, party and travel. Guess what, I still enjoy them now. Well, a little bit. I enjoyed those stuff when I was still in my home town CDO where my family and friends are. I was very much liberated then.  But I when I moved here in Manila, things have turned around a 180 degrees. I became a home buddy. It’s probably because I started working in night shift and oh boy, working in that shift really consumes you up. I always get tired and sleepy. So even during my days off, I spent it sleeping. But I never fretted, I still have the moves in me, it’s just that I get so tired easily. That’s why when I have time to go home in CDO for parties, I still can… with my husband’s permission, of course.

my last day of being single - my bridal shower

I am lucky with my marriage and husband.  My husband is as liberated and as open minded as I am. He knows me very well. He knows that I don’t want to be controlled, that I am ambitious, and I am a free spirit. Never did my husband tried to stop me in doing things I love.  My husband would even encourage me to pursue on other things such as going back to school again, surfing, enrolling in dance class, etc. He’s simply the best! When I go home to my hometown, sometimes, I tend to forget to text him and inform him my whereabouts and he’s just okay with it because he knows I am just simply having fun.

my husband being makulit during the ceremony

A few months ago, I got an invitation by my friends to go on a vacation in Macau. I, first, declined because I scrimped on my budget for this year. But it was my husband who convinced me to join the girls. He said, it rarely happens that a barkada would go out of the country for a vacation.  Sure enough, I was in the group and I totally enjoyed my trip.

me and my friends at the Tsim Sha Tsui station in Hong Kong

Another thing that I still enjoy now is going trips alone. I love traveling alone. It gives me an ultimate sense of independence. I feel invincible when I travel alone. This is the max of my “me time” that I always ask from my husband. Sometimes, I leave the house solo but joins into another group of friends. I like that, too.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that enjoying the perks of a single woman while being married is just an icing on the cake.  Yes, I got lucky with my husband because I chose to be lucky. I found him. I would not have married him if not for his better judgment for myself.  The reason why I wanted to be in my marriage because I know we love each other. I love my man. I love everything about him even if sometimes he’s really annoying. But that’s marriage for us. It’s the imperfections that make us perfect.  Marriage makes a better definition of my life right now. I love that waking up every morning I know that somebody out there (maybe beside me, in the kitchen, in the shower or in the office) loves me. I love that any minute of the day I can get a message from a special someone. Most of all, I love to pray everyday and include my husband in my prayers. And I just don’t pray for “me” but for “us.

one year in our marriage. still happy and strong.

Every marriage is different. If you ask that same question to another person, his/her answer will be very different from mine. Others may be vague, absurd, funny, and ridiculous, but hey, who cares! It’s their marriage, not ours. Everyone is  unique and same goes with marriage.

I am so back!!!!!

I've been tad late in updating this blog. Oh, scratch it. That's an understatement.

The only reason why I've been lazy in blogging these past few months is because of our crappy internet connection. Yes, the Sun USB dongle that supposedly gives us fast connection (as per their commercial) is making everything online sluggish. Although we're on postpaid, we felt that it's no longer worth the money that we're paying every month.

Then just this afternoon, Globe finally installed our DSL. Woohoo! Guess what, we've got a free wireless modem! This makes me more excited since I will be blogging out soon in the comfort of my bed. Yahoo!!!

So dear followers, I am sooooo back!